The sight of him, relaxing in the home I used to live in, casually wearing my clothes—from that, I felt a deep intimacy. And in that sense of closeness, there was a different kind of sexiness from the tension or excitement of maintaining a distance. I wanted him to belong to me more, and I wished to become his more clearly. It seemed it had been that way since long ago, even before I was conscious of this sense of belonging.
“Seo Yeehyeon, just seeing you wear that, I think I could cum two or three times.”
Yeehyeon, perhaps taking Liu’s words as a joking exaggeration, smiled, his eyes crinkling. A playful and secret curiosity suddenly arose on Yeehyeon’s face, still holding a trace of a smile, as he sat with large, white pillows stacked behind him, wearing a white shirt.
[So… how many times did you do it?]
“……”
Liu, who at first didn’t know what he was talking about and searched his memory for a moment, recalled their conversation downstairs about the ‘number of times he’d masturbated’ and burst out laughing.
“If I tell you, I think you’ll look at me like I’m an animal.”
[I won’t.]
I have some idea of your sex drive, CEO-nim. Adding that, Yeehyeon, who slightly lowered his gaze, seemed to be fiddling with the hem of his shirt.
“I want to make this clear. It’s true that Alphas have strong sex drives, but the reason I’ve been masturbating so often lately is because I’m away from you, not simply a matter of libido.”
What I want is Seo Yeehyeon, not just to relieve my sexual urges. —To Liu, who stated this firmly with an almost aggrieved tone, Yeehyeon smiled and nodded.
[Then… forget the average, just tell me the most times you’ve ever cum in one go.]
“By masturbating?”
Yeehyeon nodded.
“From the time I got back from Paris until now?”
The lover on the screen, nodding his head emphatically, seemed to be enjoying putting him in a difficult position. On his end, he had been struggling to hold back the impulse to tease, and here Yeehyeon was, cornering him and having fun. It felt a little unfair, but to be honest, if it was Yeehyeon’s teasing stretching in this direction, he would welcome it anytime.
“Last week, after our date ended, I did it about six more times by myself.”
[…….]
Yeehyeon’s surprised face moved further away as the screen shook violently. Liu swept back his falling hair and pointed at the screen with his index finger.
“You think I’m an animal, don’t you? Right now?”
[…….]
Yeehyeon quickly denied it, but he couldn’t undo the brief moment he had hesitated and averted his eyes. He muttered as if in disbelief.
[But you also did it twice during our call….]
At this time last week, they had shared an intimate time, stimulating each other through the screen. As Yeehyeon said, Liu had indeed cum twice during the call, but that alone was far from enough.
It might be different with proper sex that lasted for hours, a process of repeated insertion and knotting after caresses and long foreplay, enduring the length and weight of Yeehyeon’s body. But with something like masturbation, just rubbing his own penis to reach ejaculation, nothing could be resolved. Yet he couldn’t ask Yeehyeon to watch him masturbate until he felt some degree of relief.
“It’s not usually this bad. I can live while controlling my sex drive to the level of a typical male Beta. But these days….”
[I know. It’s because of me. That’s why I don’t dislike it. In fact….]
Yeehyeon, who now possessed a systematic and professional level of knowledge about Alphas and Omegas, would know that his current state was one of heightened sexual arousal, stimulated by a specific Omega he was interacting with.
Yeehyeon’s eyes, which had been lowered as he trailed off, suddenly lit up with life and met Liu’s again.
[Actually, there’s something I’ve been curious about for a long time… Don’t laugh, and please answer me.]
“Yes.”
Yeehyeon, who let out a small laugh at the obedient reply, cleared his throat several times and shifted his eyes, hesitating, as if unsure how to begin.
[CEO-nim, no, Kun… have you ever had sex until your penis went completely soft on its own?]
“……”
It was an unexpected question. Liu, who was rarely flustered by anything, couldn’t help but flinch back the moment he heard it. It was all the more so because Yeehyeon’s expression and tone revealed a genuine curiosity, not a sexual joke thrown out to heat up the atmosphere before starting to masturbate in earnest.
[I’m not trying to dig into your past experiences….]
“Of course, I know that.”
Liu rubbed under his chin and narrowed his brow. It wasn’t common for Yeehyeon to ask about such things first. He wanted to answer the question sincerely. He had to search his memory for a long time to give an accurate answer, as it was a part of his life he hadn’t even been conscious of.
“No.”
[Not even once?]
“Not even once.”
After confirming it again, Yeehyeon let out a breath, “Hmm…” and swept his hair back with a thoughtful expression. As he tucked his hair behind his ear, his hand paused, and he tried to suppress the smile spreading across his lips. Liu thought he knew what Yeehyeon was thinking.
It seemed his lover wanted to confirm some kind of first. Liu lightly tapped his forehead against the top of the phone resting on his lap.
“No one’s pheromones had ever broken through my defensive wall, either.”
[…….]
“It was also the first time I didn’t find someone else’s pheromones unpleasant, and the first time I couldn’t control my knotting and changing at all… it was all a first.”
Liu briefly looked past the phone screen to the painting hanging on the opposite wall of the bed.
The painting that had comforted him when he was rigid with the isolation of being different from everyone else, and the owner of that painting, whom he had desired so madly that he was willing to tear down and destroy the self he had built up with everything he had. And the one who, by choosing a future with that broken version of himself, had granted him a new chance upon the ruins….
That painting and its owner were now together within his field of vision. It wasn’t some stroke of luck that had fortunately fallen into his hands when he came to his senses one day. Liu didn’t believe in things like fate or destiny, but tracing the journey to meeting his Diamond Dust, breaking through odds so slim they couldn’t be calculated, the existence before his eyes could not be explained in the language of common sense.
The more he mixed his body with Yeehyeon’s, the faster his pheromones had grown stronger. Not long after their first knotting, it had already reached a point where, once he was inside, he couldn’t suppress the changing no matter what he did. That was why he had to tell him. There was no other way to stop the changing.
A Beta who had so easily torn down the defensive wall that no Golden Omega had ever been able to overcome.
He hadn’t realized it at the time, but when he was under the influence of Yeehyeon’s pheromones, he was an Alpha in rut, plain and simple.
An Alpha in a state of being possessed by the reproductive instinct to mix pheromones with the Omega before him and pour his semen into that body over and over again, having completely lost his reason and educated social graces.
No matter how gentlemanly, gentle, and affectionate an Alpha’s disposition was normally, instinct took precedence during a rut. The same was true for an Omega in heat. It was a state of estrus that Betas found most difficult to understand, and a state that Liu himself had most wanted to avoid, a version of himself he never wanted to become.
And yet, how was it that in the moment he was possessed by his pheromones, he couldn’t feel any displeasure at all?
It was something that couldn’t be adequately explained with any words, that he was the first and the absolute of everything. It seemed his lover still didn’t quite understand the absolute value of Seo Yeehyeon’s meaning and influence. But what did it matter? He was prepared to repeat it for a lifetime, as many times as he wanted to know.
“So you were always wondering about things like that, lying there so limp it looked like you couldn’t lift a finger. Seo Yeehyeon.”
Leaning his upper body toward the Yeehyeon in his hand, Liu smiled rather mischievously.
[It’s just… you’re always hard even right after knotting, Kun, so I wondered if you weren’t satisfied….]
Yeehyeon, avoiding his gaze and rubbing his neck, was being tantalizing, almost as if on purpose.
“First of all, I’d like you to do something about my current hard-on. I don’t know about you, Seo Yeehyeon, but I’ve been… for a while now.”
Pausing for a moment, Liu tilted the phone to show what was below. He revealed the bulging volume of his penis to Yeehyeon, which was pushing tautly against the center of his briefs. It was so swollen that the shape of the head was clearly visible through the fabric.
“In this state.”
In the screen he brought back up to his face, Yeehyeon now had an expression that showed he was definitely on the right track as well.
Liu adjusted the lens to an angle he thought made his face look a little better and tilted his head slightly, feeling a light sense of self-loathing at his own cheap seduction, trying to use his face to draw out his partner’s desire even more strongly.
“I want to make Seo Yeehyeon like this too. What should I do?”
At the passive remark, which sounded as if he were ready to move as commanded, Yeehyeon burst out laughing. The vibration from that laugh seemed to make his penis throb.
[Um… unbutton your shirt, please.]
As soon as the command was given, Liu reached for the buttons of his shirt without hesitation. The top two buttons were already undone. Lifting the phone toward the ceiling to get a wider shot from top to bottom, of his upper body, he quickly undid the buttons from the third one down. He slipped a hand through the opening and swept it broadly across his chest. Yeehyeon let out a low laugh at the provocative posture, but that laugh was already far from being a simple expression of fun or amusement.
Leaning back more loosely, almost half-lying down, he slowly caressed his entire upper body and whispered to the Yeehyeon on the screen.
“I wish… you were on my stomach right now.”
[…….]
Liu’s voice was already hoarse and low. He pushed the parted sides of his shirt further out, increasing the level of exposure. As he took slow, deep breaths, he rubbed the abdominal muscles that were now more clearly defined and confessed his desire to Yeehyeon.
“Sitting on my stomach… leaning your upper body over my chest… and touching my face.”
On the screen, Yeehyeon’s lips parted and then he bit down on them hard. The desire to suck on that red flesh made his thighs tense up powerfully.
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